crazy thoughts-VII

too many "me"s... i read something hoping for some answers, i ended up with more questions. no its not helping. Its like there are multiple conflicting "you"s ( or should i say "me"s)... and then you search for something inside you there, and you find more "you"s ("me"s) and one moment u can relate to them all, and then next moment they are all different. if we were all created, and if the purpose of life was to get liberated, then why was this whole mess up the way its messed up. its as if u were part of some video game, and the designer kept adding complexities (to just amuse himself??) or may be make it tougher, but then isn it he who s leaving? what if this all is just a "matrix" or something vaguely similar... more like a huge trap, and you just got a find a way out. How does it feel to know that you are just here for the amusement of someone up there... the whole world something like a massive cock-fight... or some bizarre sci-fi robo-wrestling. a game that progresses and develops on its own... just a game... and there is no more meaning... just the amusement of some higher being! would "life" still be the same... would you mark yourself lucky to be a part of it?

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Trade-off

Trade-offs. used this term a couple o times couple o places. Dint think i d b using it in lifE as such. There's always a trade-off , between what's in your hand at right now, and what u wanna hold. Between what u can do, and what u wanna do. Between ur heart and ur head. Should there be? if we are a single entity, should what we feel be different from what we live? shouldn't life be bound by one philosophy, a single thought that runs through you, and reflects in everything that you do? Should there be a trade-off between being happy and making someone happy? Shouldn't it be the same? i can't understand compromises. I cant understand giving up something for something else. There cant be something less and something more... its either something o nothing. i cant understand why we sometimes fake ourselves. or we drift to believe that we are something else. why is inactivity so elusive? What can be achieved from endless conversations tat lead nowhere, head nowhere? Why ...

friends, dreams, twilight n stuff

last week been totally busy... ma roomie frm pune had come down. so been roaming around for like a week. day one was north goa -- panjim , anjuna .. etc.began with dona paula , then kala academy , panjim church, lunch at aunty maria, my first visit to the flea market. shopped like an idiot, then went to aguada .. click click. day two went kart racing, then colva , jet ski, then ccd , coffee n craziness... day 3 was in coll, n then old goa n monte , day 4 -- jus in n ard vasco -- japanese garden, three kings. all awesome times. was like being back in pune ! all crazy shit talk, swinging, bitching, laughing, more like rolling on floor. sittin up late nights ( nt smtin new). twas funn ... got lots of time on the wheel. driving is addictive. u want more n more of it! day b4 morning, she went back,dropped her to panjim . the bridge was closed, so had to go all the way via ponda ! :P rest of the day was spent wit friends ! caught up wit a friend after some 5 long years. end of ...

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