Psychedelic Slippers

Note: this post is nt a result of over studying, i sometimes apply engg to my life. while in the car (after the paper on ma way home) stuff that should have runthrough ma head durin the paper, was runnin after it. so there were these coordinate axes that kept comin to ma head, n conversions frm one reference to another. we all, in our lives have a coordinate system. in most cases we place ourselves at the origin, and then everything else is relative to it. this relativity is perception. jus like how changing the reference point is gonna change a whole lot of things in the problem u r tryin to solve, so is the case with life. as we change our reference, we change our perceptions towards things. we define everything in and around us with respect to this reference (origin). imagine a coordinate system having three orthoganal axes. everything else then, friends, family, work, etc. fall all around the origin. u choose ur place in this reference system. ideally ud b placed at the origin. the...

m suddenly all excited. dun think its abt answerin the paper.. but somethin... n i jus cant study cs of tat.. so m here to cool of my nerves.. m so lookin forward to the new phase infron of me. a month ago i never thot id b this excited abt life ahead. now its jus tat contradictory. my head jus cant stop making plans.. :P

so i finally had this talk with myself today... we sorted out things. some times we drift.. drift away from wat we are supposed to be, supposed to do. as we meet people and let them into our lives, we let them change us in different ways. sometimes they change us too much. there are some people who have a profound impact on our lives, so much tat they actually change the course of it. sometimes its an encounter of a day, a tiny splitting moment, sometimes much more. one of the best and worst thing about human nature is probably gettin hooked to things... so much, they become for a substantial time in our life indispensable (o atleast we think so) so this talk with me, was about these people in my life who are so indispensable to me today, so much of me wud i spend in thoughts of these people that id lost sight of wher i was heading. utterly clueless.. i have been this way for quite some months now. heading without a plan. thought of spendin some time in making one today. "you need...

the third day straight of not studin much... yeah much wud b right.. i take occasional peeks at the book. m bac to dreaming abt things with the book infron of ma eyes. nt overprepared i still feel uncertain abt everythin i know. i don like examsss... i don mind answering, but i jus hate that consciously preparing for them part. why is this educational system(or is it me?) so messed up tat i should need to study for exams.. it should be obvious right.. like the things that i am expected to knw, stuff m supposed to grab over a sem, y do i cram it in like a weeks time(yeah the maximum time i wud possibl spend on studin a sub). cram it in the section of the memory called "volatile", cos exams are over n puff its gone. twas never like this in school... never ever felt this need to study as such.. i stil remember stuff from school.. stuff frm 10 years of school more than i can remember stuff frm 4 years of engg.(referring strictly to academic stuff here) watever.... it cant chang...

so after scribbling here early mornin... i went to bed.. n then there was this loud sound... THUNDER!!!!! i slept again..i jus assumed i was dreaming.. was too resistant to react to it... n then ... IT STARTED POURING.... like it was june o july... being peak heat id left all windows open... n there were these millions of droplets of water comin in... mom got up n went to see outside. mus hav been some 4.30 o 5 tat tym i lay in bed, seeping the sights of wat i cud probably call the first rain. i wanted to go grab my cam... shit dad took it... :(( never missed it so much i went out today... (not somethin i usually do durin exam prep hols, i don even step out of ma house!!!)... n it loooked beautifuuuuuuulllllll.... everything was so fresh... as if everythin were smiling :) the flowers, the leaves.. the sky.. the sea!! there was this strikin contrast all around bright green v/s dull grey i wish so much i cud put a pic out here... (gtg bac to books... i don want to... i d rather go sit o...

its a day away from books...(may b night watever....) spent some time today thinkin on wat to do next... a broader thought on what life holds after college.... i see a plethora of possibilities... of wat i could possibly do, with what i have gained til now, yet there's alwes this question wher to begin! there's alwes this teeny weeny voice at the back of ur mind, that doubts everything, from the probability of success to ur capabilities in fulfilling ur desires.. the voice that keeps whispering til u take the plunge... its alwes been plunges til now... u take the plunge...n learn..n i don see anything changing. (there are so many things to say... yet they all come in bursts n pass away.. there's a mismatch in the speeds of reception n relay... n my buffers are overflowing... il go grab some sleep...good morning world!!!)

there are so many tictoc clocks everywhere telling people what toctic time it is for tictic instance five toc minutes toc past six tic Spring is not regulated and does not get out of order nor do its hands a little jerking move over numbers slowly we do not wind it up it has no weights springs wheels inside of its slender self no indeed dear nothing of the kind. (So,when kiss Spring comes we'll kiss each kiss other on kiss the kiss lips because tic clocks toc don't make a toctic difference to kisskiss you and to kiss me) e e cummings

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its been a long long time... thers like 10 days left fr exams.. m nt surprised at ma unwillingness to sit with books. been out of things to write. while most of ma time on fb, orkut o flipping thru photos. yest i realised i gt somewher ard 7500 photos on ma pc. most of em over the last one year. thanks to the upsurge of digicams floating loosely around. digital storage is cheap. rechargeable batteries n memory cards are a non recurrent expense... so go KHATAK.. (its nt khatak ne more... more like click click...). in these last few days (n even now) everyone is so extra considerate about each other.... n people keep talkin abt coll, n how they gonna miss it.. n how they gonna miss everyone n everythin associated with it.. sometimes wish ppl showed this consideration a bit earlier.. u don get to live anyday twice... everyday is unique, and its ur one n only chance to make good of it. "the way u live it", so y shud u be any different frm wat u hv been all the years thru, jus cos...