Skip to main content

afterthoughts

m bac at home.. aft a well lazy weekend.. m waiting fr tomo. ahh wats special abt tomo? the buddy returns. wil be catchin up wit ma coll frens tomo, umm wats so big abt meetin up? i guess its that familiar at home feelin. i went to colg last week, it was like this totally difft place, may be cos i had been there aft many days, but there was this feelin that it wasn my home any more. not the home it was for like 4 years of engg.

i met up my professors. well the talk with my professors was really encouraging. i was no longer afraid to discuss them, may be its more easier to discuss ur past than present, but nevertheless i did. with a hope that may be it will help them help someone else like me. cos i have been luckier to find my way back, someone else might get lost. i wasn scared to talk ne more, i spoke more freely than ever before, there were no worries abt their after thoughts. i guess its the freedom we feel when we dont have to worry abt makin impressions(right or wrong). when u realise that it no longer matters, what u do or what they say.. its probably gonna be inconsequential. its jus this smile smile meet, n u need nt bother abt it in ur head. its nt like those times when u opened up to one of ur profs, n it wud b this big things fr u lingering in ur head fr days together. u no longer bias urself, no longer are bothered about opinions... u r free

is graduation the price of this freedom, an alienation from everything that was more yours than you?
Labels:

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

अजुन माझे चुकले - माकले शब्द तुला टोचत असतील सावलीमध्ये कधी चुकून क्षण ओले भिजवत असतील पाउस म्हणून , वेड्या मनाची समजूत ही , तू घालत असशील मी नसले तरी कधी , चोरून, स्वप्न माझी पाहत असशील नसेन मी , पण हरवलेली प्रीत माझी खरी आहे एक डाव फसला , म्हणून आयुष्यभराची दूरी आहे
Post a Comment
Read more

Trade-off

Trade-offs. used this term a couple o times couple o places. Dint think i d b using it in lifE as such. There's always a trade-off , between what's in your hand at right now, and what u wanna hold. Between what u can do, and what u wanna do. Between ur heart and ur head. Should there be? if we are a single entity, should what we feel be different from what we live? shouldn't life be bound by one philosophy, a single thought that runs through you, and reflects in everything that you do? Should there be a trade-off between being happy and making someone happy? Shouldn't it be the same? i can't understand compromises. I cant understand giving up something for something else. There cant be something less and something more... its either something o nothing. i cant understand why we sometimes fake ourselves. or we drift to believe that we are something else. why is inactivity so elusive? What can be achieved from endless conversations tat lead nowhere, head nowhere? Why ...
11 comments
Read more

friends, dreams, twilight n stuff

last week been totally busy... ma roomie frm pune had come down. so been roaming around for like a week. day one was north goa -- panjim , anjuna .. etc.began with dona paula , then kala academy , panjim church, lunch at aunty maria, my first visit to the flea market. shopped like an idiot, then went to aguada .. click click. day two went kart racing, then colva , jet ski, then ccd , coffee n craziness... day 3 was in coll, n then old goa n monte , day 4 -- jus in n ard vasco -- japanese garden, three kings. all awesome times. was like being back in pune ! all crazy shit talk, swinging, bitching, laughing, more like rolling on floor. sittin up late nights ( nt smtin new). twas funn ... got lots of time on the wheel. driving is addictive. u want more n more of it! day b4 morning, she went back,dropped her to panjim . the bridge was closed, so had to go all the way via ponda ! :P rest of the day was spent wit friends ! caught up wit a friend after some 5 long years. end of ...
9 comments
Read more